So, I'm pregnant which I ended up telling everyone I know about a month ago, family and close friends back in November. All of my children were always planned and I had to try for continuous months for my second and the baby I'm carrying now. For some reason in this pregnancy I'm feeling a bit off. It's been on my mind after the initial "high feeling" of finding out wore off. I'm more than happy I finally got pregnant (took almost a year) and my husband and children, everyone they are happy and they know it's what I wanted.
But this time in all of my pregnancy's I'm picking out optional ( don't know the gender yet) Bedding, decorations, baby supplies, my brain was always set to BABY. I can't get into it this time for some reason. Now I have a couple names here and there a couple that I love (still fighting my husband for them) and that makes me happy and the ultrasound made me happy to see the baby, but it didn't jump start my feelings.
Now everyone has their opinion on what this baby is going to be, a large amount of people think I'm going to have a boy this time. My husband is also hoping and praying for that! Now I don't know if people are saying that to me because if you've talked to me at all you know I'm a little freaked to have a boy! I just am not used to little boys they are so different than my girls. I don't care about the teen years and their scandalous dressing, their sassy mouths, and bad attitudes, bring it on. But a boy is a whole other creature for me. So I don't know if people are trying to tell me it's a boy to scare me or just taking guess's at it or whatever.
So my thought in all of this and my weird attitude towards this pregnancy could be two different things, it IS a boy and my hormones are all weird and thrown off completely for some reason I've never experienced in having two girls. Then I was thinking maybe I'm just going to be scared until I'm 20 weeks, find out and take in whatever answer they give me gender wise! If you know me you know I don't like the "unknown" in my life. My concern is where I don't understand why my mind is not set to 'baby' yet. I'm finding it very odd.
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